to do list

1. Quit job.
2. Move.
3. Start writing.

The whole square peg - round hole thing cannot be emphasised any further than when you're flat out at work, writing, editing what should be fascinating and exciting stories and being completely and utterly bored by it all.

While I enjoy each of the different portions of my job on their own, I don't love them put together.

I love writing, but let's be frank, I hate writing to a style guide. Hate it with a passion. The first year of my job saw this blog fall by the wayside because I spent so much time writing. Being paid to write stuff you don't necessarily have a passion for sucks your passion for writing in general.

I like taking photos, but after taking nearly 7000 photos in 15 months, I go somewhere on the weekend, take my camera with me and barely take any photos.

The rest of my job? I can take it or leave it.

I was told that everyone could see what I should be except for me. I was so worried trying to find out what I was made to be that I'd neglected to ask anyone's advice. It just goes to show that there are occasions where people know you better than yourself.

I've never felt so much relief as the moment someone enlightened me as to what I should be (and I actually agreed and got excited). Imagine how encouraged I felt when they said I'm actually good at it.

I wish I'd been told and encouraged sooner, but I'm glad I've been told at all.

Now I have something to work toward. Something I'll enjoy working toward, instead of feeling second-rate about something I'm mediocre at.

I've been reading a book which makes the assertion that God is really happy with us when we're doing what he created us to do. I think I'm on the way to doing that.

I want to set the world on fire with what I do.