it's only talk but...

it's got me annoyed. People talking about me behind my back really really really really really really annoys me.

It also grieves me that people are beginning to judge me for who I date and that they would even have the audacity to think that I am that easily enough swayed to leech the opinions and ideas of someone else just because I'm going out with them. No kids, you cannot catch someone else's thoughts and opinions from kissing. Grow up. I have my own brain and I'm not afraid to use it. The fact that you think that I'm not intelligent or wise enough to think for myself is a severe insult. And as for the decisions that I may or may not make about my life, my spirituality, my friends, my family and my other half? It's not personal. Don't even think it's personal. The decisions that I make have been prayerfully considered. It insults me to think that you don't think I put the same amount of blood, sweat and tears as you into every decision I have to make.

If you think my relationship with my boyfriend is 'too serious' or that he's a 'bad influence'. Then please, keep that to yourself. You're not helping the fragile balance that any relationship is hanging in.

Even moreso, I'm annoyed that people are judging me by things that they are hearing secondhand. That's just not cricket. If you hear that I may have said or wrote something that disagrees with you, please, check it out by me before you come in all guns blazing.

And yes, I know that all of the above can be covered by the 'good intentions' clause I know you all care heaps and I thankyou for that. More than you will ever know. But please, please, please - think before you speak!

This is just mere catharsis (or gettig stuff off my chest as the case may be) from the kind of week that I've had. It's not targeted at anyone and if anyone takes it personally then please rest safe in the knowledge that I don't hate anyone, I just hate this situation.